Varför tvivlar jag?
En essä om att omsätta vetenskapliga teorier med praktisk kunskap
KnowledgeReflectionChildcare workerPreschool teacherDevelopment processProfessional roleKunskapReflektionBarnskötareFörskollärareUtvecklingsprocessYrkesroll
This essay is about the development process I have undergone during my experience-based preschool teacher education. I write about my internal process, about how I as a childcare worker go from assertiveness and believing in myself into fighting doubts, thoughts and feelings as a preschool teacher. The purpose with this essay is to make the difficulties with managing new knowledge and practicing it in real life visible, and at the same time overcome your uncertainty in a new professional role. The essay is based on two stories from my professional life where I, in the first one portray my actions and behavior as a childcare worker and in the second one as a preschool teacher. Based on my stories I try to answer questions as what does the individual learning process look like when going from one professional role to another in the same profession? What impact does theoretical knowledge have on practical knowledge?I have used reflection and writing as methods for my paper. I have reflected through dialogues together with fellow students and colleagues, but I have also reflected in my thoughts by having an internal dialogue. I base my essay on phenomenology and hermeneutic theory which both are experience based and evolve from interpretations and understandings of phenomena that arise in one`s mind. To be able to visualize my thinking the reflection has been an important part of my writing and also for being able to take different perspectives and examine myself critically.In this essay I discuss different kinds of knowledge and I base it on Aristotle´s three forms of knowledge. I begin my paper with describing my non doubting period and by using scientific theories I try to deepen my knowledge about why I go from being confident to having doubts. The core of the story is the part about my doubting period where I discuss the importance of theoretical knowledge. I reflect upon and highlight different dilemmas in which a person`s knowledge is invisible and I discuss whether a uniform would make any difference to what knowledge you possess in the eyes of a beholder.